One of my dearest friends, Natalia Provatas, sent me a picture of a 2018 memory from before baby came into mine and Amos' life. We were at a house party celebrating episode 3 of VIDA on Starz, which has since been cancelled. I remember this was one of the nights we talked about queerness and got schooled on the word "joteria" by playwright and composer - Abel Alvarado. Since this eventful night, Natalia and I have embarked on our own personal journeys to enter television writing rooms and dream to someday have our own show or sell a script.
I post this image and tell this story not only because our faces express ridiculous joy, but there is something about the color scheme of this photo strip and our brown/olive skin that gives me life.
I recall Natalia's style, and her influence in my life. From her creative essays, to visiting her apartment a while back and sitting at her kitchen table made from a repurposed door. "Anything is possible!" She said.
My personal style has shifted over the years and has declined since my twenties. I find myself choosing comfort over style. Yet, Natalia is always evolving and very subtly makes space for her style to stretch with bold choices that I often admire from a distance. Though I am a lazy dresser, I still stay abreast of fashion and trends.
Someday I'll jolt myself awake again, grab that bold leather jacket from my closet and match it with a red dress and boots. I'll wear it to a dance rehearsal and let myself be imperfectly bold and take risks again.
As Amos and I embark on the future of our home, we are also seeing opportunities for growth and bold choices. It really does help to have creative and stylish friends though, they always get the juices flowing. And we writers and world makers, we're the best at making something out of thin air. Thanks for the flashback, amiga.